Hippolytus de Marsiliis

I would love to swim through your words.
To submerge myself, head to toe, in acclamation.
Letting love wash over every inch of me.
To know what it feels like to float.
To know what it feels like to accept.
To know what it feels like
To be more than enough.

But instead,
Your praise and affirmation
Drip

Drip

Drip

In my mind.

Internalizing every accolade
Dissecting every ovation

Drip

Drip

My life guard, an imposter
Ensuring I never leave the shallow ends

Drip

Drip

Wanting so badly to swim,
But fearing
I’m not even worth
Drowning